Day one of VI was today; after the 8-hour training, I cried.
I was overwhelmed and exhausted.
We had to teach the group several times, and I froze up.
For the past 5 weeks, I've been training with my mentor and working
so hard, and then in this VI, I felt like a huge failure.
It was not good.
Then I was like,
"Stephanie, girl, what are you doing? If you struggle
standing up and teaching in front of a Zoom meeting, why
do you think you can teach in a class setting?!"
I felt so doubtful and so worried.
And it's true, I don't like being the center of attention.
I am uncomfortable with eyes on me.
So why do I want to be a Barre3 instructor, you ask?
Well, I'm good at it.
I'm pretty friendly, and Barre3 has really helped me in my life and
I want to share that with others.
At dinner, Christian calmed me down, built me up, and
to I had shake off the doubters in my mind (thanks a lot, Satan, you big idiot).
I'm going in tomorrow with more confidence and bravery.
Also, I'm not going to lie; I feel super old.
